A Letter To My Husband

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My Protector, My Love,
I decided to write you today. We have been through a lot in the past few years and I thought now would be a good time to write you. Life can be hard, life can get messy, and we both know how messy it can get.

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Lessons Learned, Life to Live

Lessons

2014…
What can I say about 2014?
We have been through some rough times, great times, and times we are definitely thankful for.
2014 has been everything mushed (I think I just made up a word-Ha!) together to make one heck of a year.
I know you guys probably have seen that I have been MIA a very long time. Life Happens.
January 2014,
That is when it started. Actually January 20th. I never knew what darkness looked liked til that dreaded day. I never knew what could become of such a day. How much can change in just mere seconds of life.
I am still in shock. I am still going through movements of everyday life. The shakiness.. the mere thought of being alone, or even the vast of doing anything alone is terrifying.
I will say, once I bet this I will get through it. I will become stronger. Heck, I am stronger today than I was on that day.
I can’t go into details just yet, but I will. I will keep running the scene in my head over and over again, til this is over. It has almost been a year, and all this mess is still cycling through courts. I don’t know if or when it will end, but it will. I promise.
I know this is just a bunch of babbling, and I am sorry. I just can’t go through all the details yet due to this mess could bite me in the tail and I don’t want my blog or my emotions being brought into light if I do get called to the stand. They can do that, right? It is possible.

In all honesty,
The family is fine. My kids are growing so fast.
Jade is 6 years old now, Grayson is almost 18 months old. They are such wonderful kids. I couldn’t ask for anything better. They are my world, my everything, the reason for many things to be grateful for.
Jade is in 1st Grade, and absolutely loving her new school. Her new school is so much better. Jade’s food allergies is no more of a burden, but something they look after. They do everything in their power to look after my daughter, and for that I am beyond excited for. The encouragement, the safety. I no longer go through the day with stress or worry. She never comes home with a reaction, she comes home with a smile on her face! That in itself is something I thought I would never see!
Grayson, man… He is the happiest baby. He goes through life with all smiles. He gives hugs, kisses, and is learning to talk. He is truly a blessing, and couldn’t ask for a better baby.
My husband, my protector, my safety net, my world. I don’t know what I do without him. He lifts me up when I need it most. He gives me everything I can ever imagine, and right now that number one thing is “SUPPORT”. I can never love him enough.

We also bought a house! Yes, Bought! It is OURS.. well, it is the banks, but hey our name is ON IT! Ha! I can’t wait to post pics, I promise I will get to that too!
I will be back, you will see.
-Jenna

33 Weeks

Goodness. Things are getting busy around here!
I have opened up my book blog:
We’re Jumpin’ Books

We are starting to move! Yes that is right, TODAY! We just found out yesterday.
I started going to the Doctor once a week. Already got my labor instructions.
March 8th – Group B testing
March 9th – Baby Shower
March 16th – Maternity Shoot
March 21st – Sibling Class at our local hospital for Jade
March 31st – Easter

On top of that we have to paint the nursery, decorate, and unpack, all while being 8 months pregnant and having a 5 year-old. Today I already took a nap, it is so much to think about, and so much to do in the next four weeks, maybe if I sleep long enough it will all happen quickly, right? 😉 I do have to say that this pregnancy has been enjoyable. I didn’t know it could be so “easy”, with Jade I was sick during the whole time, heartburn, acid reflux, pains, and I really think when I was pregnant with her I was dealing with Gallbladder issues, because it was all the same symptoms that I went through with gallstones. I would have to sleep sitting up with her, and I couldn’t eat anything, even salads made me sick. So, with that being said with this pregnancy I can eat anything I want, I don’t have heartburn but I do get acid reflux but not as bad. I have normal pains of any pregnancy.

Braxton Hicks Contractions all the time! I didn’t have them with Jade. I get them during Zumba, if I bend over, going up and down the driveway (if I am in passenger seat – we live on a bumpy road right now), walking, basically I get them a lot if I am not sitting down. Yes, I drink enough fluids.

Okay, enough of all that.

33weeks
This week your baby weighs a little over 4 pounds nd has passed the 17-inch mark. He’s rapidly losing that wrinkled, alien look and his skeleton is hardening. The bones in his skull aren’t fused together, which allows them to move and slightly overlap, thus making it easier for him to fit through the birth canal. (The pressure on the head during birth is so intense that many babies are born with a a cone head-like appearance.) These bones don’t entirely fuse until early adulthood, so they can grow as his brain and other tissue expands during infancy and childhood.

Cravings
Ice Coffee
I think my cravings are easing off, or at least I hope so.

Symptoms
Pressure
Fatigue is back
Fibroid pain – lower right side
Period like cramps on left side
Drainage (I know TMI)
Braxton Hicks Contractions
Weight: 203lbs – 23lbs total
BP: 107/70
Grayson’s Heartbeat: 150

Still got to pack the hospital bag! Goodness me. So much to do, got to get busy!
I have my One Month to Love on a schedule, I don’t know if I will be able to finish the updates though, I think it stops at Day 17, not sure though, but once everything slows back down I will update it. Don’t forget to check out We’re Jumpin’ Books!

32 Weeks

We found out that we will definitely be moving between March 2nd or March 9th! I am so excited, not only to get a new place, but Jade will have a bigger room, and we will have the space we need.

On another note, this week has been amazing! Jade was in the hospital last week, and she is completely 100% herself now, not only is she herself  but I have gotten to spend all week with her since school has been out.

Even with her home, we still have been packing, and getting everything ready to move. On top of that we are getting ready for the baby shower, which is March 9th! I am so excited, I haven’t heard about the plans, but I know it will be amazing!

32 Weeks

By now, your baby weighs 3.75 pounds and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You’re gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, he’ll gain a third to half of his birth weight during the next 7 weeks as he fattens up for survival outside the womb. He now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). His skin is becoming soft and smooth as he plumps up in preparation for birth.

Cravings
Ice Cream
Milk

Symptoms
Pressure in my pelvis
Hip Pain
Braxton Hicks Contractions
Tired

I could sleep all the time, where is this energy they tell you about?
Still need to pack the hospital bag! Yeah yeah, early I know.

Another awesome thing! I have opened up a Book Blog, kinda want to separate my books from my personal blog. So, check it out too!
We’re Jumpin’ Books

Also have a twitter for my books that you can find out information on Giveaways, and free Books!
@JennaJBearden

My New Twitter for this blog is @JennaBeardenB

31 Weeks

It has been another busy week! Jade was admitted into the hospital on Monday. She started getting sicker on Friday. Her fever went up to 103.5 so I decided that the Dr needed to admit her so we could figure out what is wrong! I would give her medicine to mask the fever and then it would return, it has been stressful, but just thankful that she is home now. (And we really don’t have answers other than it could have been viral or her walking pneumonia)

On top of all that I missed another day at Zumba, and gosh I miss them! When I am doing Zumba it reminds me to stay healthy, and I have a bunch of support from them, they are my motivators and I am theirs.

We are still packing and getting everything together. It won’t be long and we will be moving, and having a baby boy here with us!  We also still need to find a pediatrician, and do an interview with them.

31 weeks

This week, your baby measures over 16 inches long. He weighs about 3.3 pounds and is heading into a growth spurt. He can turn his head from side to side, and his arms, legs, and body are beginning to plump out as needed fat accumulates underneath his skin. He’s probably moving a lot, too, so you may have trouble sleeping because your baby’s kicks and somersaults keep you up. Take comfort: All this moving is a sign that your baby is active and healthy.

Cravings
Ice
Nothing much really

Symptoms
Shortness of Breath (Normal)
Blood Pressure: 110/80
Head is Down
Heartbeat 140
Weight: 201 (Gain of total 20lbs)
Lower abdominal aches
Backache
Forgetfulness

Hospital Bag (I know a little soon)
Cozy socks and slippers
Favorite pillow
Night Gown
Going-home outfit for your baby (Alabama Onesie, Hat and Booties)
Camera & Batteries

The Alphabet of Love

A.
you’re way of showing me Attention, even when you work and go to school full-time.

B.
sometimes when I’m awake at night, I watch you Breathing. (not in a creepy kind of way)

C.
the way you pull me back to bed just to Cuddle me on a Sunday Morning.

D.
Jade gets to call you Daddy.

E.
an Extra bundle of joy coming in April.

F.
never able to figure out when you will Flirt with  me next, whether it is at home or in public.

G.
your sense in Giving. You always think about others and I will always be Grateful for that.

H.
seeing you Happy makes my Heart Happy. Therefore, we are Happy, Happy, Happy.

I.
I will always love you.

J.
your Jokes make me smile.

K.
I can Kiss your lips and feel warm inside.

L.
the way you Look into my eyes and I know you will always be Loyal to me.

M.
when you can send me Messages about Roses are Red Poems.

N.
the way you put our Needs before your own.

O.
you are my Only One.

P.
Playful ways, bring me back to our dating days, and remind me why I feel in love.

Q.
I will never have to Question you.

R.
when you surprise me with Roses

S.
Spending time with you is Simply amazing.

T.
True love never dies

U.
your Understanding

V.
wishing you a happy Valentine’s Day.

W.
when you Work just so you can provide for us, and give me the opportunity to be a stay at home mom.

X.
an eXtraordinary life, raising kids and still feeling like we fell in love yesterday.

Y.
Yearning to spend time with You.

Z.
being happy, relaxed, and full of Zen.

30 Weeks

My goodness this week has been busy. My daughter had walking pneumonia, my husband had an awful head cold, and now I am sporting the sniffling, runny nose, with that awesome head cold. Don’t ya love it when Hubby shares with you? On top of all that we are packing, painting furniture, going to Dr Appointments, and cleaning out things we don’t need.

With being sick, I completely missed out on Zumba yesterday, and posting this. I have been resting on the couch. Not much you can take while your pregnant, so resting is always a good thing.

30 weeks

Your belly’s increasing size is a definite clue that your baby is getting bigger every day, weighing in at over three pounds now (he’ll be packing on the weight at a rate of half a pound per week for the next seven weeks). Also growing daily is his brain, which is actually starting to look like the real thing with those characteristic grooves and wrinkles. And now that your little genius can regulate his own body temperature and turn up the heat, he’ll start shedding lanugo, the downy body hair that’s been keeping him warm up until now.

Cravings
Sour Skittles
Mash Potatoes
Burgers
Ice Cold Water
Ice Cold Milk

Symptoms
Sinus Crap: Runny Nose, Sinus Pressure, Coughing, etc
Tired
Baby kicked so hard today. He completely moved my belly to one side
Braxton Hicks Contractions
Shortness of Breath

29 Weeks

Life seems to be getting way busy around here. Next week we start on buying the big items for baby Grayson (crib, swing, bedding, pak-n-play, etc), this week; however, we are I am packing. I think I have packed 10 boxes, and we have furniture stacked on top of furniture (no joke) I am keeping my eyes focused that the current tenant will be moved out, and we can move in. I will not get discouraged, I will hold on to my faith, and know that in patience, good things come to those who wait.
During Zumba this week, I started having Braxton Hicks Contractions. I hope this doesn’t mean that I will have to lay out of Zumba. Savoy (Hubby) is concerned, but I just did the best I could, and eventually my stomach stopped tightening up. I did stop and get me some more water while it was happening though.

29weeks

Your baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel. His muscles and lungs are continuing to mature, and his head is growing bigger to make room for his developing brain. To meet his increasing nutritional demands, you’ll need plenty of protein, vitamins C, folic acid, and iron. And because his bones are soaking up lots of calcium, be sure to drink your milk (or find another good source of calcium, such as cheese, yogurt, or enriched orange juice). This trimester, about 250 milligrams of calcium are deposited in your baby’s hardening skeleton each day.

Cravings
Hint of Lime Chips with White Corn & Black Bean Salsa
Ice Cold Milk
Girl Scout Thin Mint Cookies
Burgers!
Dairy Queen: Chicken Basket with Gravy
Green Grapes

Symptoms
Soreness
Braxton Hicks Contractions
Exhausted
Hip Pops when Switching sides
Walking Slower

28 Weeks

Holy Moly! I am in my third trimester with only 12 weeks to go!
I had my 1 hr glucose test this past Monday, and boy, how I didn’t miss that. I was fine, till I had to stand up and walk to the car. Sitting still with all that sugar rushing around, and the baby was kicking me like crazy. I had an awesome headache for the rest of the day, and almost through the night. I still don’t know my results from it, which I probably won’t till tomorrow or Monday.

Another big thing! We have found a rental and will be moving shortly. I am already packing, might as well be productive. It is a very cute house, I will post pictures when we are able to move in.

Belly
Baby weighs two and a quarter pounds and measures 14.8 inches from the top of his head to his heels. He can blink his eyes, which now sport lashes. With his eyesight developing, he may be able to see the light that filters in through your womb. He’s also developing billions of neurons in his brain and adding more body fat in preparation for life in the outside world.

Cravings
Breakfast Stuff: French Toast, Yogurt, Eggs, etc
Ice Cold Milk
Hot French Fries

Symptoms
Sinus Pressure
Headaches
Pain, seems to be around my ovaries or tendons
Blood Pressure: 105/67
Baby’s Heartbeat: 145
Weight: 198.8 (3lb gain in a month)
Pushing him out of my ribs! It is like a hard ball (maybe his butt, or head?)
Still rocking the Zumba!
Braxton Hicks

Name Reveal

So, I am awake bright an early, even before the chickens, or so it seems.
I have a head cold, and can’t sleep very well, right now I will blame our hot room for that.

Anyway, yesterday I went to Hobby Lobby and found the rest of the letters for our baby boy’s name. I am so excited because the name fits in perfectly with our family, and it has meaning, not only due to colors, but because of other reasons 😉

The name list Hubby decided on was:
Evan
Christian
Conner
Grayson … and well,
Grayson

Grayson Savoy Bearden due April 13th.
Thank you for the ones voting in the Name Reveal, and held out till Hubby could make up his mind.